Hi all,
looking for some brutal honesty here. I am a 21 y/o female, began distance running when I was 16 and was very passionate about it for two years. I got quite fast and could go for very long, with the caveat that I was incredibly underweight. Things got bad and I was hospitalized for an ED. Ever since, I took about two years to recover. I started weightlifting and have built quite a bit of muscle. Currently, I am 5'7 and 130-140 lbs. I love the way weightlifting has sculpted my body. Aesthetically, I like the look of big glutes and a defined back and arms. However, there is something emotionally missing when I lift. I get catharsis from it, but I feel like I am building all this muscle just to walk around liking the way I look, but not really DO something. I don't have 'functional fitness.' While I go on the arctrainer or stairs, it isn't the same. I miss the spirituality I felt running for long early in the morning. At the same time, I am afraid of losing my lifting progress and disliking my body, but I may crave the catharsis of being good at running more.
I know that this is not a binary decision. You can run and lift. But after so much time off, it is DAMN hard to be good at both at the same time. I know that being good at running again will take some sacrifice and likely weight loss.
I am wondering if you think I am too heavy to run right now? Every time I try to run I end up with terrible medial shin splints which never happened when I was much lighter. Also, advice on people who have switched from a lifting/running focus.
Ty and please be respectful.