We just put this up as QOD. What do you think?
“Winning that bronze medal has damaged me physically and mentally. I just worry, have I damaged myself too much that I can’t get back from that? And then I almost question, is it really worth it, if I’ve damaged myself for the rest of my life?
“I’m a good athlete but the way in which I won my medal was by being so meticulous, so organised, so on it in every single element of my life for 10 years. That involved collecting sleep data, analysing my heart rate variability, weighing my food, weighing myself every morning. ‘OK, I’m too heavy. I need to starve myself for three months.’ I’d wake up in the middle of the night and I’d have to neck a glass of water because I was so hungry but I was trying to drop weight.
“It’s not to say I’ve not had any joy, but I’ve done so many things that have constrained me and for so many years. I would describe it as living unhealthy behaviours for so long.”