Why not shake it up and give something new a try? A new event range or maybe a new training method?
This summer I finished up my collegiate running career as primarily an 800m runner, and although I think my 800m journey is far from over, I am pretty mentally burnt out about doing 200-800m reps over and over and over again for the last 6 or so years. I ultimately decided I’m going to work on half and full marathons during summer/fall and 3k-5k during track season.
I know my maximum potential in 3k-5k amongst my peers is probably just to “fit in” at the collegiate racing level, and I sure as hell am not gonna be doing anything super noteworthy at the marathon distances, but I’ve found myself REALLY enjoying the experience. I made a fool of myself running my first marathon the other day, split a tad under 1:15:00 through the half marathon mark and barely broke 3:00:00, I feel like if I did something similar in an 800 or mile, I would just feel stupid and embarrassed, but to me the marathon and the horrible bonk I experienced was nothing but pure fun. It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to just go out and have fun in a race, and laugh at myself instead of being very angry with myself for racing in a less than smart fashion.
I realized by switching from 200m repeats to 2 mile repeats, 10 mile “long runs” to 20 mile long runs, I’d killed the expectations I’d learned to have for myself during workouts, because I no longer knew what I expected, and that alleviated the stress and anxiety I’d started feeling about training and racing over the years. I realized there’s 2000something people in this race, no one gives a F*^+ what I’m going to run including me, I don’t have to worry about not scoring for a team or maintaining a good standing on said team or validating some kind of insecurity. I’m just another dude running a race.
From a pacing perspective, from what I achieved in the training leading up to this marathon, and the level I’ve raced at before this marathon, my end result was an objective failure. There are people not as talented as me, that didn’t train as hard as me, that kicked my trash that day. A lot of them. I even got chicked a few times over. That hasn’t happened to me since my soph year of highschool. I bested the 5k PB of most people and the half marathon PB of many of the people that beat me during this race. That’s embarrassing and sad if I still had a coach you’d bet they’d be pissed at me. I did not hit my A, B, or C goal during this race nor did I stick to my race plan. Yet this marathon was one of my most favorite races of my life and I can’t wait to do another one.
The point I’m trying to get at is that accepting hobby jogger status can be freeing. I think you’ve always had a sense of pressure on yourself to perform, and now you cannot satisfy that pressure because you trained hard in your prime and saw most of your potential realized, and now that you are out of your prime you won’t be hitting that level of performance again. The lesson I’ve learned is who cares? Go run cause you love the sound of your feet striking the road while you feel a crisp breeze on your face. Go run a race because it feels good starting out smart and passing tons of people as the race progresses. Fall back in love with the process and realize maybe there isn’t as well defined if a destination anymore.