And as free as you are to exonerate yourself, there are people who had worse that didn't choose the dirty path. Just because we as a community here are runners doesn't mean we have to support your lifestyle choices.
Having said this, I don't care that you recovered because you started in the first place.
You're not owed deference nor respect because in the general populace, addicts are a minority.
You had, as many did, many chances not to say yes. There exists no direct correlation from a difficult life and the consumption of cocaine or crack, etc.
In order to have it, you have to be around it tangentially at some juncture.
You don't have the right to use the fact that you hated your life as a teenager as fodder to explain addiction or even started.
Brass tacks: You don't become bad without associating with bad people.
Guess what dude? I hated my life as a teen and used it to get involved in school, a city youth commission, and even a part time job. I enjoyed life because of all of this. I didn't need alcohol, drugs, cigarettes or anything.
What you won't admit is that you're a rebel and it caught up to you, and many of the square nerds and dorks you all with the ripped jackets, goth faces and blue hair never needed that outside affirmation to know themselves.
So I don't care about your recovery, prowess as a runner, or what career you have.
I'm just one of the few that will candidly say I don't accept addicts and their stories and why.
i don't care if you care what I've said...but it is something I could not live with myself for not saying.
Tl;dr: you did the dope in the first place. Why should we care?